help me to go through this..

something about her
she..
the one who i always miss.
the one who i always need,
if only she's a guy!

i know that it is wrong.
dear god, please help me to go through this.

now i'm lost!
i'd lost myself.
i dont know who i am anymore.
after everything i've done...
i'm guilty!

before it happened.
at first,
i wasn't aware of her beautinies.
i dont really like her.
in fact i have full hatred towards her.
my world was perfect without her.