Life as a teenager is often very different than life as either a child or an adult. It is a turbulent time, with different obstacles to face, and often it seems as if there are many, many more of them.
i can't help myself of feeling guilty!
after all the things i've done,
after all the things i've said,
being a teenage has taught me..
mistakes and mistakes..
Teenagers full of questions.
how to overcome worries?
how to overcome sadness?
how to make the right decisions?
how to make things right?
how to be happy?
I hardly remember when was the first sins i've commit, but i do remember the biggest sin ive done,
wish i could turn back time, and stop myself from doing it. I'm weak, weaker than before. i cant control my own desire. God give me happiness. God give me joy. I have almost everythng. Everything that most people dont. How i wish i could be stronger. Strong to fight for what is right! I didnt wish any of these to happen. But what is done, has already been done. Let bygones be bygones. Now is the time to build myself back. Working on how to throw away the feeling of guilty. Although it is hardly to be done!
I'll keep on trying, and never give up. Not for others but for myself.
There is a difference about me than anyone else..
There is a part of me
That feels I am different from everyone else.
Something that I can't quite see,
Something that I can't quite feel,
Something so unreal.
But this 'thing' is always there,
This 'thing' with others,
I will never share.
So I push it to the back of my mind,
All the thoughts of boys and clothes
And make-up, it is hiding behind.
Sometimes, when I have almost forgotten,
It comes back with such ferocity,
Angry and unforgiving.
I feel so lost and sad,
Whatever caused this feeling
Must have been so horrible and bad.
A lost memory or something else,
I'll never know,
Whatever it is,
I know for sure,
I can never let this feeling show.
